as i have been so addicted to facebook nowadays, i have decided to use the facebook template i found in the btemplates website.

cool eh? hehe. anyways, there are still a lot of things that i need to tweek in that template. but if i get tired of tweeking it, damn...it stays just as i downloaded it. who cares anyway...? as long as i have changed my template, im cool with it.

viva la facebook! viva la blogger! hehe.

no matter how good you are...no matter how hard you try to please them...still...nobody gives a s***!

yesterday, people from my college were oh so ecstatic about our college day...leaving behind the significance of the date.

its been a year now since the dreaded accident which famously known as the date itself. the 9/11 attack at the two most majestic, and the tallest building ever to stand on the face of the earth, WTC (world trade center also known as the twin towers).

what im trying to stress out? well, nothing really...i just want to say that lets all pray for the poor souls who were claimed by death in such a short notice. may their souls rest in peace.

i think its not bad to laugh some times...takes away all your stress and leaves you this feeling of...GAY! :)

yeah...blame it on him and not on me. its not all the time that something goes missing, i know where it is. no, it does not got that way. the song doesnt play backwards, it play forward. if you dont know what i mean then il tell you what i what i want to say.

yeah, i have done those kind of stuff...like stealing and everything, but i already quit...a long time ago! if you haven't noticed, i have been watching my every move, every words that i utter...everything! i changed everything that i am to the person that you want me to be...and guess what? i succeeded!

now, the question is...why do you still blame me for everything? are the things that i do or did not enough for you to believe me that i did change? what do you really want me to do? honestly, i am really confused...my head is in total mess and i just cant think straight anymore...and i am blaming it all on YOU!

LEAVE ME ALONE! for good...dang it!

is where you can find the e-flens! ungh...i just dont know what to do as of the moment.

in my head, there is a battle going on whether i should be lax about things, enjoying life as it goes...or always think of the worst case scenario.

i dont really know...i need help. its what ive been asking for the last couple of weeks but it seems that i cant find someone who could help me.

dont get me wrong, my friends...they can help me, i know. but sometimes, friends just give you the total opposite of the advices or the help that you need from them. they somewhat contradict to whatever you have in mind and that's what makes it cool.

friends...they make you happy and they make you feel like shit too and that's what separates real friends from those who are fakes and i love it so much.

anyways, going back...it seems that tomorrow is eternal. how long must i wait for the aid that i have been seeking? how long must i torment myself and deprive "ME" from being happy? how long? how long? //_-)

you would never know how important it is until you lose it. tragic but true.

HAZARDOUS...they are the type of friends who are only for show. you are their friend if they need something from you but if they dont, you are a total stranger to them and that sucks. good luck to those who belong in this category for all i can say to you is...I DONT GIVE A DAMN.

NON-BIODEGRADABLE...those friends whom i can trust and whom i can count on, even though in ways that i dont expect them to be. they are the real friends, friends who are for keeps. you would know that they belong in this category because there is this certain bond, a feeling of security and a feeling that somewhat tells you that, whatever happens, happens...they are there whenever you need them and they can be trusted even wiht issues with the size of your underwear. nasty as it sounds, but its the truest thing that i can ever say about these people and i am ever so glad to tell them back that i would be there for them as they would be there for me. give and take is the trend of the season...and always will be...even at the highest tide.

BIODEGRADABLE...friends who are close but not the type of people that you can always count on...they maybe not the worst, nor the best, but still, these people do what they can to cheer you up and that is something that i can keep for as long as i want and for as long as they want...in life, there are certain people who act "AS THE ENTERTAINER WHEN THE ENTERTAINER NEEDS ONE..." if you have a hard time understanding that quote that i just made up, then its up for you to understand.

at any random moment, there are these total strangers that you meet. sometimes, rather, needed if necessary, you should have this gut feeling whether a person is a person not only for show, not because you can jive to their attitudes, not because they can treat you for lunch and give you the things that somehow makes you jubilant but, you should know how to test one's attitude whether he/she is a jedi or a sith. nasty isnt it? but there are people who hide behind mask and turn out to be the worst serial killer that walks on the face of the planet...believe it!

all this time, ive been feeling so good not knowing that in the next 48hrs id be in total s***!

why didnt i just resist? why didnt i just stayed away and let go of the past that has ruined my future? why, with all my efforts of trying to change, still, this kind of habit of mine is still with me? it has been a while since i havent done it but here i am now, regreting that i ever laid my eyes on that damn thing and did the thing again...ungh! it makes me want to commit of suicide...but i dont think its the right thing to do.

now, im feeling so damn stressed out...im panicking, i dont know what to do, i am being such a freakin' paranoid...every move i make, every move they make, it makes me think of something else...every word spoken, every thought that is thought, it makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs out of frustration...ungh! waah! i just want to disappear from the face of the earth but i cant.

i need help...i mean a lot of help...as a matter of fact, i need a miracle and i dont know who would make that miracle for me. please...help! im really lost right now! i mean...really! serious! for real! huhuhuhu...//_-)

im not even sure if the spelling is right, nor am i using the correct term, but there are questions that bothers me right now...is it wrong in being paranoid? or is it just a feeling of being secured in the negative way? will it hurt me? will it do me good? will i get something out of it?

and i love it so much...it means a lot of things to me though im only going to mention a few...

for one thing, it means there are no classes! hooray! it also mean that i dont have to catch my breath by going up the third floor of that damned CAS building. hahahaha. xD

another is, i have an excuse to ditch arabic class...honestly, i was ecstatic to study the language...not until the midterms came and passed by...man, it was so stressful memorizing things that you cant even remember what they mean and man...my brain is like floating in cloud 9. the things that i expected to learn from the subject are not being taught to us...bummer, you might say, but i cant do anything about it...my knowledge to language and to the culture is way too limited. dang. how is wish the lessons were way to comprehensive and that we learn more than the basic kindergarten lessons. hmpf.

and to name the last thing that i like doing when it rains...i get to drink a lot of coffee and smoking until my lungs hurt...hahaha. that's what i love doing best when it rains. dunno know why but it has been a part of my system since i started lighting up sticks in high school. hahaha. those were the days...and i badly miss those days.

ppbbtt...rain, rain, dont go away...david jhules dont want to go out and play. hahahaha. xD shine, rest ka muna ha. :)

but i still need to help to make the links button functionable...help? anyone?