end of the year

yep..it's the fourth quarter of the year. actually, the year is about to end...and so is my life... just kidding. just recently, i had a surgery again on my butt, that fistula i got earlier this year was supposedly be removed from my system, but unfortunately, the previous doctor failed to do that. my case got worse and my family decided to have it removed totally again, this time in a different hospital and with a different surgeon. i am now at home, currently sitting in a very awkward position because i can barely sit properly because of the surgery. i am kinda recuperating from it and it's really getting me off my system. and oh, one more thing before i forget, i am diabetic at 20. yip, you heard it right. i am diabetic. everything that i got used to, like eating a lot and drinking all the good stuff plus smoking, gone! i was advised by my doctor to start isolate myself from them. my meals are controlled, 1cup everything everyday is my motto now. and on snacks, all i can "enjoy" are a pack or two of crackers and a glass of non-fat milk, also because of my high blood. at this age, i can't believe that i have all these things, like high blood and diabetic. though i believe these things are hereditary, but why does it have to be me who has to inherit these from my folks? well, i don't think i will be getting answers for that one now, but i hope it will be soon. you know what, after everything that has happened in my life, it makes me wonder, how long will i live in this world? i mean, these things that i have in me are known killers, serious killers, major killers and i am sad to say that i have them, at an early age. but i know, GOD has a purpose for everything and i know he loves me like everybody else. hmpf...i think this is enough for now. just drop by next time. xiao.