it may sound funny but i miss blue's clues! hehe. i was emoting a few seconds ago (seriously, i went black for a couple of seconds) and blue's clues came into my mind. another thing is that, i want to write something tonight and i dont know what's the title going to be so i decided it's "blue". hehe. yun! blue's clues came into my mind.

also, when i think of blue's clues, i remember my classmate way back then in high school named "Hope". its was on our sophomore year when it happened. recess time was over and we were on our way to our classroom. on the staircase (right wing of SPUD HS dept building) hope was busy chatting with jezar and i was a couple of flights below them and on that time, naging uso sa aming year level ang mag "flip" ng skirts ng mga girls and what the girls would do in return to us, they reach down our crotch and grab the balls. really funny when i remember it but going back, ok go. that was the situation. i was on an advantage coz hope was ahead of me and back then, we always tease hope for being a "tomboy" (lesbian) and flipping skirts, man, she hates it. so yun. out of the blue, i suddenly flipped her skirt and her panties showed.

are you following closely? by now, you can already guess why related ang post na toh kay blue's clues. ok, im giving it a go! its because her panties was blue's clues! by the time i saw it, i was already laughing my ass out! literally. i was like rolling on the floor (made my uniform look like shit from all the dirt) and the people that happens to follow us, and the people that were ahead of us and those that are inside the CR nearby, rushed to the staircase and peeped on us and when they found out what the commotion was all about, they too went rolling on the floor.

the end result, hope went home crying at lunch time. luckily, she didnt tell her mom about what happened. well, of course, that afternoon i apologized to her but she didnt talk to me for like a week and that made things worse because we belong in the same class and not talking to her made me feel bad.

i dont know if i made things to make her talk to me or whatever, but after that we became friends again. that experience taught me several things.

for one thing, not all teenage girls love boys. some still love cartoons (and most of them love to wear them around and be their secret company wherever they go) and i have to admit that until now, i still love cartoons and all those kiddy shows and im not ashamed of telling the whole world about it. in fact, im proud of it. hehe.

another is that, high school life is the best scholastic life there is. i badly miss being a HS student but life has to move on. at least, it gave me a lot of good memories to remember and along goes with it are the bad ones which i dont want to remember but id rather keep coz again, it taught me something. :)

its maundy thursday, nothing to do but finish off a cigarette. i didnt have lunch, didnt feel like eating. just a couple of minutes ago, i swallowed down 4 crackers, a bread and im about to open 3 munchers...i love muncher so much. i dont know what i like about muncher. is it the peas or the flavor? dont really care, as long as i can eat at least 10 pcs a day, then there's no problem at all. i just love it! :) hehe.

hmpf, what to talk about? well, for one thing, im not extatic about "semana santa". though its the only time of the year to remember how Jesus Christ made the ultimate sacrifice ever and that is to let himself be nailed to the cross for the sake of Man-kind. how i pity him so much. but, looking at the bright side, if he didnt do it, we wouldnt be here in the first place. i think its the whole idea of it. to remember why we are here and we should pay tribute to that. i mean, people from all walks of life make different sacrifices for them too. its either to relieve that day when Jesus made the ultimate sacrifice or to do it as sacrifice for a specific someone.

ok, wait. i think i didnt say that one very well. what i meant was, people do the same kinda stuff that jesus did back then. being nailed to the cross, slash themselves at the back with whatever they want while walking several miles and everything. do you get my point? well, for me some do it, as ive said, to relieve that moment when Jesus made the ultimate sacrifice ever. some do it as a favor or something for a special someone who is sick or dying. more like something to do in return for the help that God might give them.

when i was a kid, i thought it was cool and all that, seeing people bleeding from the slashing and everything while walking the streets, hiding their faces in masks. some, sweating like pigs while carrying this very big cross that would mean carrying all Jesus' burdens for a couple of days and on saturday i think, they would have themselves nailed to the cross. but as i grew older, its not that cool at all. i mean, seeing the grusome stuff like bleeding as an end-result to their sacrifice, it makes me think that, what is the point in all of this? i have my own theories but i dont really exaclty get the whole point of the semana santa. i dont want to sound stupid or anything, its just that i dont get a single thing about it. i just sit on my chair, wait for something to happen or if not, do something to get out of boredom that this event brings me. call me anything you want, but that's how i celebrate "semana santa".

while others go to bora or to any beach or fancy resorts, i get stuck at home and be bored. that is something. hmpf. out of the ordinary. extreme! :(

for the past two weeks, i've been drowned in silence. far away from the city noise and the usual sound of the urban setting. though Oroquieta is a city, its nothing compared to Dumaguete. but, there are a few things that i would think or considering before i would make final judgments to the place and they are as follows.

1. RURAL FEEL. to tell you honestly, i grew up in the rural setting (well, most of it) and what i like about it is that you get the chance to be solitary and connect with your inner self. my stay in Oroquieta made me realize a lot of things that i think i could straighten out in a several ways. it was really a relief for me honestly, being able to think straight and be able to come up with so many ideas and everything just keeps on coming and i just cant stop them. they just pop out of my head and it ended up me with "options".
2. NEW PLACE, NEW ADVENTURE. it really was a new adventure for me. the last time i've been to the place was 6yrs ago and man, there has been a lot of changes and it was really fascinating that i was able to go back to that place and be with the people that i was with in the past, though some got lost along the way (may they rest peacefully) but it did'nt stop me from enjoying every single day.
3. A DIFFERENT ENVIRONMENT. for one thing, people think of Mindanao as the battle ground of the Philippine Archipelago but, to tell you honestly, not everybody participates in that war. well, i would have to admit that roughly around 70% is involved in the so-called "war" or whatever and its just sad. but, im happy to announce that Oroquieta is not part of it, TG! :)

   and lastly,

4. LOVING THE PLACE. well, two weeks is a bit long for a mild vacation stay. and to tell you the truth, i grew fond of the place. as i've said earlier, i love the solitary moments that i have all for myself with nobody and nothing to disturb me and just enjoy the company of "ME". i grew to love the people and everything that goes along with it and it's quite fun to think about.

to sum it all up, im dumbfounded about and flabbergasted about the whole setup. me being lost in that island and just enjoy it. though the trip was unexpected, i traveled unprepared but still, i enjoyed every single moment i had 'coz i know for myself that, after that experience, it would take ages before i can do it all over again and by that time, it would be too late for everything. on the bright side, im still young and i still have a lot of time to do the things that i want in life and one of it is going back to that place and just do everything all over again and just be free.

yeah, im not saying good bye. im just starting up another blog, that's all. hehehe. il keep this blog active as well, but for now, i have to get used to the interface of the additional home of my thoughts, my site at wordpress. that blog of mine will be much more exclusive and much more "personal" (and notice the quote on the word) and i think its gonna be a new adventure. hehe. i still love blogger and i think im gonna love wordpress.

i have so many things in mind but i dont know how to express them. i barely keep those thoughts longer than i can remember them. every now and then, i keep on having them but just as ive said, i lose them by the time i have them. weird eh? hmpf...i just dont know what to talk about but i just love on typing these words out here. is this the expressing stuff? i think so.

i wanna be remembered someday. :)

as i went for a stroll in the park, i saw an old lady and her grand-daughter walking side by side through the stony boulevard sidewalk. i cant help but stare at them for i was marveled by their presence. watching them made me realize of what future i might have, if i would be that old woman being accompanied by my grand-daughter or grand-son, strolling in the parking late in the afternoon basking under the warm rays of the sun. anyway, going back to the story. i cant help but come up with a perfect dialogue for them, since im a couple of meters away from them and i cant hear them, so i made up my own conversation that are results of my wild imagination.

LOLA BASYANG (LB): alam mo apo, hindi ko magawang kalimutan ang aking mga matatamis na alaala dito sa mismong boulevard na'to

APO(grand-daughter): pwede ko ba'ng malaman kung ano yun, lola?

LB: aba syempre naman. wala naman tayo'ng ibang pwede'ng gawin dito sa park kundi mag-kwentuhan.

LB: isang araw nu'ng ako ay isang dilag pa, may nakilala akong lalake dito, OO, dito mismo sa park na 'toh at ang pangalan niya ay si edgar. alam mo, nu'ng una ko siya'ng makita, akala ko, isa siya sa mga lalakeng gusto ako paglaru-an. pero nu'ng araw na yun, dun ko nalaman na natatangi siya, espesyal siya at alam ko na hindi ko makakalimutan ang araw na yun.

APO: ganun po ba? eh ano ang nangyari?

LB: naging madalas ang pagkikita namin dito. eh, halos araw-araw na yata kami'ng nagkwekwentuhan dito at sa banda'ng huli, naging malapit kami sa isa't-isa.

APO: si lolo po ba ito'ng lalake na sinasabi mo lola?

LB: hindi. si edgar, siya ang aking "first love".

APO: huh? pwede ba yun? bakit naman po hindi?

LB: hindi pwede kasi si edgar ay isang sundalo noon sa rebolusyon. nagkagulo ang buong pilipinas at halos sa lahat ng sulok, may gyera.

APO: ganun po ba? eh, ano'ng nangyari sa kanya?

LB: dumating ang araw na ipinagtapat niya sa aking ang totoo niya'ng pagka-tao,na isa siya'ng sundalo at kasali siya sa rebolusyon. simula noon, hindi na ako nakipagkita sa kanya. nung araw na yun, sinabi ko sa kanya na hindi ko gusto'ng umibig sa isang tao na nabubuhay sa pakikipagpatayan sa kapwa niya.

APO: huh? ang sakit mo naman magsalita lola. hindi po ba siya nasaktan sa mga sinabi mo sa kanya?

LB: siguro, nasaktan siya nang husto. ilang araw niya ako'ng sinusundan, nagdadasal siya na patawarin ko siya dahil sa hindi niya pagsabi sa aking kaagad kung ano siya at bigyan ko siya ng isa pa'ng pagkakataon, pero naging matigas ako at hanggang sa bigla na siyang nawala at hindi na kami nagkita'ng muli.

APO: ano po ang nangyari sa kanya?

LB: sumama siguro sa gyera at ipinagpatuloy ang mga pangarap niya sa buhay bilang isang sundalo at hindi na kami nagkita simula nun. hanggang ngayon, nasa isip ko pa rin siya sa kabila ng lahat.

APO: ganun po ba. sayang noh? siya sana ang naging lolo ko ngayon.

LB: Oo iha, siya sana.

after i got lost in the island called Mindanao, im finally back. i missed my online life and i just cant help but cry. aw? ahahahahahaha! far-out ouy! bitaw, i missed everything. i cant post exactly what i have in mind right now coz im having a bit of a "jet-lag" from byahe, so maybe tomorrow nalang or something. but im including a picture of the place where i went. aw? sakto ba? kever ouy! :)

today, March 22, 2009, one of my ka charnessan friends, cathy, has already left the orient. she is already on her way to Bacolod City to start her new life called "work". Carla mimoy left a few days ago but she will be back this week to settle some unfinished business. this picture tells everything i have to say, obviously. this was the bus that cathy was on and i even placed a circle around her for you to have an idea that she is actually in this picture only that you cant see her quite well. i placed a circle around this spot coz this is where she is seated. i actually saw her by the way coz if not, i couldnt have had this picture taken. i was laughing to myself while looking at this coz honestly, when she texted me that she is already leaving, i was about to cry coz cathy is the last to leave the city. (Dawn is staying in Dumaguete to work in teletech coz her sister is a supervisor or something there so i wouldnt be making a lot of comments about dawn coz i know i will still be seeing her around). i already got over the fact that hannah is already in Manila and i know i wont be able to miss Carla mimoy that much coz i know Carla will be alright by herself. going back to Cathy, what im going to miss about her is that she always makes me smile a lot. with her cute ilongga accent and prettiness and everything that goes along with it, i dont think i can find another person that would fit her role in my life, and im not planning to look for someone to replace her for that matter either. another fact is that, Cathy's current boyfriend is of my courtesy. i was the one who gave "him" to her. im like their bridge "daw" and i sorta, kinda, lika, parang, medyo, may pagka! aw? hehehe. basta ouy, i dont want to talk much about them coz it only makes me cry. all i could think of now is that, wherever life may take them, i hope that they will be fine and that they would find all the happiness that they dreamed of in life. i have assured them as well that if ever they need someone to talk to, i wont hesitate to reply to their messages as its the only way that we communicate from each other. ahay! life, so many surprises yet none of them so far has made me feel better about myself. hope this wont last as much as i expect it to be coz im getting kinda tired of it. adios tat!

Throw yo' hands up in the air If ya know he love ya Tell the DJ play this song right here If ya know he love ya Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step If ya know he love ya It don't matter if you by yourself If ya know he love ya

If that boy don't love you by now He will never ever, never ever love you He will never ever, never ever love you If that boy don't love you by now He will never ever, never ever love you He will never ever, never ever love you

I know you think that I just be trippin' on ya Boy you see, this ain't how I normally be But I can't help this jealousy Ooh it's taking over me, ooh I'm falling way to deep Without you by my side I feel like I can't eat or sleep

But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be That's why I tell myself

If that boy don't love you by now He will never ever, never ever love you He will never ever, never ever love you If that boy don't love you by now He will never ever, never ever love you He will never ever, never ever love you

Baby, I can't help but fantasize Wondering what it might be like You and I sound so right But I'mma let it go tonight, it ain't nothin' Coverin' my eyes Ain't gonna see it more than twice I get it, I got it Baby, baby

But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be That's why I tell myself

If that boy don't love you by now He will never ever, never ever love you He will never ever, never ever love you If that boy don't love you by now He will never ever, never ever love you He will never ever, never ever love you

Alright, alright, alright, okay... I see ya point, I must admit I grind, I grind, I grind all day This paper's what I'm trynna get Now normally when I'm paper chasing, I be having tunnel vision And if it's really like that lady, just turn on ya television And there go Young, I said there go Young, you trynna get it did Just know I gets it done, she love the way I jigg, She love the way I move, I sha, I show it to her Shows about 100, goon Its blacks this, black that Black car, black flags I really hope that's money that ya'll got off in them black bags 808's & hearbreak, states who puts in ???interstates???? Giving me a bad vibe, guess I'm just a bad guy

Throw yo' hands up in the air If ya know he love ya Tell the DJ play this song right here If ya know he love ya Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step If ya know he love ya It don't matter if you by yourself If ya know he love ya

i love writing posts late at night. its when my brain is at its peak of imagining stuff and i cant help but remember a lot of stuff that i wanted to talk about before. but now, im not in the mood for talking too much so, tipid idd muna. hehehe. im enjoying facebook and ym. aw? sorry nagud. peace. :)

wooh! road trip is so nakakaloka. im like, d***! yupak! one of the worst road trips i had was in siquijor, nung pumunta kami sa mount olympus para maka-usap lang si zeus ng personal. ang hirap papunta dun, sobra! ang daming mga mystical creatures na nakapaligid sa lugar and di ko talaga matiis and tumunganga while driving. at tsaka the place is so forks. ewan ko ba kung bakit naging forks yung lugar na yun eh nasa greece kami? forks is somewhere in the continent of US of A dba? hainku! nakakaloka talaga.

the next worst road trip i had was kanina. papunta ako ng mount everest and sobra, ang ginaw dun! and the place kinda reminded me of Mt.Olympus and forks talaga. ewan ko ba kung bakit nagkalat ang forks and Mt.Olympus dito sa pilipinas...pilipinas nga ito diba? dapat Mt.Talinis o d kaya Mt.Canlaon? eh bat ganun? hahaha...walang kwentang post talaga ito sa mga taong walang malay sa mga sinasabi ko. ..hahahaha! sobrang sorry ha. :)

sa mga taong nakakarelate sa post natoh, holla friends!! i miss you na. hehehe. loved your posts sa adventures natin sa siquijor, love it! cant help but LOL! aw? LMAO na pala uso ngayon. sobra! i love it! hehehe. :) loka moments nato! wooh! peace out!