suffering from extreme boredom. i am surrounded with extremely noisy people pretending to be terrorists, throwing bombs at each other screaming "hell yeah! fire in the hole!". these games make me sick and they give me headaches. they make me wanna puke. but trying to observe these people can sometimes alleviate my boredom and makes me smile every now and then.

on the course of their game, unusual words just come out of their mouth like "sige, sige! naa xa sa base bai. adto-a dayon!" (ok, ok! he's at the base. go ahead and kill him!) and sometimes they just yell at the other player who happens to be seated next to the one who is yelling. yeah, it sounds crazy, but it what makes their brain tick. their own way of escaping boredom. yeah, they are crazy, they look at life like its just a stretch of land with swings and seasaws and monkey bars and merry-go-rounds. they are people with the toughest of strength and will power yet, they are the great examples of people who are too great to earn a degree in some college or university and still makes it to the real world.

yeah, that's how i look at this people. instead of stereotyping them as people who always look for trouble, but in reality, you just have to get to know these people from the inside and then you will be able to say that these people are truly remarkable in their own unique ways. sigh. wish i could be like them. but i think i have a thing of my own and that is what i am doing now. expressing myself in ways that i know that i can make myself happy though i dont benefit from it that much but the feeling of contenment inside me cant be expressed through words or actions but only in my heart-felt desire to be who i am without stepping on other people as go along in this f****ed up life of mine.

like the smoke that comes out of the cigarette, life swirls in every direction. unless you stick a finger in between the path to nowhere, then life would have no direciton at all. but even if you try making your own path, life still has the tendency to wander away from the path that someone made for you. think about it. is it your prerogative...? or is it your choice? doesnt make sense? just do the math.

ive never felt so upset in my entire life. i dont know why im saying i am upset but i think that is how i am feeling right now.

for one, i dont know what to do. im so damn bored and nothing, i mean not one thing, can make me do something that would tickle my funny bone and exercise my cheeks for once in my life.

another thing is that, its so freaking hot. i thought summer is gone but what's this? heck. im about to die.

further, its just so plain boring and its stupid sitting here in front of the computer watching the words that i think about appearing in the monitor like woah. i wanna do some blog lift but i dont think i still have the energy and spunk to do it. my blog looks good and i think i dont need to lift it up a notch again. ungh. why is this happening to me?

here he comes, here comes speed racer, he's a demon on wheels. ahay. wala talaga akong maisip na gawin ngayong araw na toh kundi tumunganga sa pc habang wala pang gumagamit. sa kasamaang palad, ako ay talagang napagod sa aking venture sa ceres liner.

biru-in niyo naman, 3am na ako ng umaga nakauwi sa bahay ng dahil lang sa mga taong chakalers na panay tadyak sa akin nung sumakay ako sa last trip kagabi. ang happening? ayun. nahulog aketch. biro lang, pero totoo, bumaba ako ng bus at naglakad pabalik ng terminal, from cathredal ha. nakakalokang exp points. and the worst thing is, wala akong pera. naloloka na nga aketch, mas naloka pa ako ng may may nakasalubong akong lasing pabalik ng terminal. juice ko. cant help but panic. hindi ako mapakali. i wanted to run but im way too tired, i want to scream pero sobrang o.a naman yata yun at tsaka mahahalata ako ng lasing na nagpapanic ako so wag na, call for help? hello? daming addict sa lugar na yun. eh kung patayin ako? bye friend ang eksena. mega float ng candles and everything else that is master card.

yesterday was not my day talaga. i had LBM in the morning that caused me to ditch class coz it was giving me problems and the emergency call of 90210 to the C-zone. sigh. really, it was not my day. sobrang daming mga bagay na nangyari na i never expected to give out such an outcome that would result me into tears. yeah, i went to bed crying and literally crying myself to sleep.

well, what happened though wasnt really a thing for me to be sad about. it was just another lesson learned and i have to say that this time i am going to really learn from it and take the lesson as something that would improve me and not something that would shatter me as a person.

to make a reaction to a blogger's post somewhere in here. happy birthday sa kanyang tanging minamahal. aw? shall i name him or not? aw? hehe. cant think of anything else to say so il stop here. so many things na nangyari these past few days na nakalimutan ko na most of them. hmpf. sad.

belated st.john's day. :) wanted to go to the beach yesterday but sadly i had class the whole day so i wasnt able to go the beach and enjoy the cool typhoon breeze and the chilly salt waters and instead got stuck in school with a very intolerable climate inside and out and i have to sweat the heck out of me and it was frustrating. hmpf.

i just need to make a post about father's day since the other night my father and i had a bit of an argument and it was all just rubbish. even if i dont apologize, i know he will forgive me somehow. but anyways, happy father's day to him and to all the father's out there. i dont have to make this post so fancy just for the message to get through. a simple greeting would sufice. love mah dad.

the 2nd first week of classes was a labyrinth of hell. i have to go to classes from the other end corner of the school to the other. man, it was tiring. i never thought i had endured those kinda stuff back then. i got so used to having a class in one room, the masscom room, that i never imagined that the other rooms from other buildings are far enough to make you choke and beg for air. some rooms, a couple of rooms away from the masscom room (CAS108) are near me yet i didnt notice they were there. psych! hehe. :)

anyways. it was a good experience though. seeing new faces and getting to know a couple more acquaintances wont be that bad i guess. losing most of the old friends is tough, i have to admit, but gaining new ones are a different story. we'll just wait and see what happens in the next few weeks and months.

i log in to blogger only to find out that there will be a scheduled outage tomorrow. haha. well that's ok though coz i dont think i have more than enough to share anyway. haha. tomorrow is the 2nd first day of school. *huh?*

yeah, you heard me right. the 2nd first day of school. complicated? nah! it just so happens that last week's 1st day of school opening was postponed and we would have to wait for another week (and that is tomorrow; 06/15/09). really, nowadays, college students like me, supposedly, are not jubilant in any way possible about the first day of school. you know why? aside from seeing the same old faces from last year, we get to face the same faces of our instructors from last year too.

well, my school cant afford to hire regular faculty members for our course and so the solution is to hire part-timers wherein, they teach different subjects in different year levels and on the following year, they teach again, only, in a much more bigger scale than that of the previous year because of the obvious fact that you have advanced in another year. yeah, i make it sound so complicated but the truth of the matter is, i dont have to experience it this year.

its going to be a lot more different for me this year. bad luck for my "2nd batchmates", they have to undergo another and final year of tormentation. wait, is there such a word? haha. i dont want to sound so mean but its the truth. well, this year, its going to be their last year in college and is the toughest one yet, though exposure from the outside world is minimal, the torture is in facing the computer for hours and trying to come up with the good, if not the best, story that they could conjure.

this year, they are going to undergo business news writing, gender issues, investigative reporting and a lot more. well, good luck to them though coz for me, i am going to deal with all my arts subjects (more like "extra curricular subjects") so that i can move on with everything else and leave that wretched school of mine. haha.

another thing that bothers me as of the moment is the non-stop down pour of rain. its been raining for days and it just cant seem to stop. its because of the obvious fact that its the rainy season. silly me. :) to spice up the season, i think there is an incoming storm or something. haha. good luck to us all.

aside from that, we have to fight the evil swine flu and the other deadly disease of the season, dengue. sigh! when will this all be gone? hmpf.

basta, im excited about the first day of school, im excited about waking up early again, im excited about racing with time, im excited about everything. sigh. LIFE. :)

im not talking about zombie dolls taking over the world. im talking about the pussycat dolls. yet again, they entertained thousands of filipinos who watched their concert last night at the mall of asia concert grounds. did i watch? of course no. the tickets are way too expensive and even if i do have the money to but the tickets, the plane fair would kill me.

i just want to make a post out of it since i saw over the television, ABS-CBN's interview with Nicole Scherzinger. well, by now, the whole world knows that she is half-pinoy and in her interview, she said something that really caught my attention.

aside from being ever so proud about her filipino roots, nicole said that she would love to sing the national anthem in Manny Pacquiao's upcoming match with i dont know who that guy is because honestly im not a fan of the sport. all i can say is, WOW! does she really know what she's talking about? im not against that thing though but thinking things over, could she really pull it off? with her busy schedule, will she be able to have the time to practice the national anthem and have tutorials in speaking tagalog? dang. she really has that filipino spunk.

all i can say is, for now at least, way to go nicole. flaunt your filipino blood. get grimey and dirty. hehe. love the PCD so much. kudos for a successful concert last night. way to go! meow! :)

and im starting to hate mud. yuck.

i forgot. i havent saved my signature yet in the computer's system so il be making post for quite some time without my signature but it doesnt mean that its not me who is making the posts ayt? hehe. peace. :)

insanely, im back. the computer is fixed, i dont know how. one day, i woke up and its there. calling me to come back to the world. 'di, joke lang. for the past few weeks, ive been busy with enrollment and supposedly, classes would start last 06/08/09 but then, they have to cancel it because of the swine flu threat. oh di ba? worried ang ating government sa infestation. haha. haay nako. and here i am, trying to make a post and i dont even feel inspired. ewan ko nga kung bakit. ahay.