death.

i wonder what it feels like to die. it has always been on my mind lately and i just cant shake the thought off my coconut. i wonder, that what they say about going to the next world (the so-called "after-life") is real.

i wonder how those who got shot, who got stabbed, murdered or those who died in an accident felt when their time was already up. i want to know what they feel, or what's even happening to them when they are on the brink of dying or just simply lay down on the floor, lifeless.

its not that im fascinated about the fact of dying or anything else related to that matter, but honestly, im afraid to die. it may sound funny, hilarious, or outrageous or whatever you may call it, but i want to be prepared for my death.

i know, knowing all these stuff about one might feel when he/she is about to die or anything, is not the right way to be prepared for your death.

for you to be able to prepared for your death, you must be physically, mentally, emotionally or whatever word that ends with "LLY" focused or just be prepared for this thing to happen. but honestly, i dont think i can be ready for my death. just the thought of dying, it just gives me the shivers and goosebumps and i just cant imagine myself being in a coffin, lifeless, pale and stone-cold. brrr. (swear, i just had goosebumps)

i dont know, but i just cant stop thinking about it. sorry.